Banned from HP forums

After posting my petition to remove SeeEmilyPlay as an HP Admin, it appears that I have been banned from the www.Happy-Penguin.com forums. This time it seems to be for real, although it doesn't really matter to me anymore. I can see that this is not a community that I want to be a part of anymore & it was probably a mistake to even try to be affiliated with them in the first place. I thought it was a cool place to hang at first. I was lying to myself... Although this community is not as bad as SBR, it's worse than I had originally thought. I don't care to be a member anymore & I won't be trying to go back either being banned from both forums & TS.

But what does this mean for my playing on the game servers? Am I banned from those too? At this point, it doesn't matter to me much. There are still some people who were still friends at HP, but I guess I'm not allowed to have friends who are HP members anymore (at least not in their domain). I have contacted both Fearless_Jack & the Illuminate for some insight on this, although I believe I already know what the answer is going to be. In which case, HP is dead to me and I might as well be dead to them as well.

There has always been attitude flung about in HP whether at me or anybody else in HP. This is not a safe place for children & even some adults may have problems with them. I made myself believe that this place was a second home to me, despite the attitude that was flung at me. I was careless... I am glad I never bought Call of Duty 4. It just would have been more money I wasted to be apart of HP. I've already wasted over $100 buying software for my own computer to be apart of them, only to be tossed in the gutter like garbage.

Maybe this is why I have lost interest in gaming. At first I thought this was a good thing, I could focus on the more important things in life. But now I can't focus on anything. My nerves are shot & I don't care much to even continue living. I haven't decided on my actions yet, but if I am offline for a full week (where I am usually on 24/7), then it may have been obvious what I have done.
Farewell Happy Penguin. I may have been one of you for awhile, but at this point, happiness is definitely not in my vocabulary.